Been feeling really depressed lately, been a carer for over seven years now, had my ups and downs, struggle to handle stressful situations, have had suicidal thoughts in the past, and have recently started thinking about it again, is my life worthwhile, etc, the only person that appreciates me, I believe, is mother at the age of 79 with renal failure since 2012, l also cared for my father and watched him deteriorating and pass away in December 2011, I went through a range of emotions at that time, mostly negative and I seem to have fallen into a negative spiral which I am struggling to get out off, l don’t trust any of my immediate family and have very few friends I have confided in, l had a negative experience yesterday at the churchyard yesterday, and havn’t been able to settle since, I think writing this post, has actually helped me, I don’t know why, I guess it’s a form of release, because of past experiences with charities, even mind, locally and the work capability programme, I have also had a relapse with my arthritis, but don’t even bother going drs anymore, I don’t know what my future holds.
Thanks in advance for, reading 